So many people have told me this. To look into somebody's eyes you are looking directly into their soul. Well when people look into my eyes it gets me wondering what they really see. Tonight somebody told me something that rang true.
She looks into my eyes and tells me that there is something I don't like about myself or something that I can accept. I think there is some truth to that. I think it all stems back to my question regarding my sexuality. There is no doubt about it that i'm bisexual. For better or worse these are the facts of life and I have to accept that. What I can't accept is bringing myself to accept this side of me and being able to tell somebody the way it is. Hiding from this truth will only cause more pain and suffering, something that I can't accept doing. Telling somebody what my secret is takes alot of courage. So much that it's frightening to tell somebody in fear of losing them as a friend. Well you could say that if this person doesn't accept what I have to tell them then their really not a friend to begin with. I have to totally agree with that but it's just getting to that point to tell them which is the really difficult part.
This is who I am and this is what i'm all about so if they don't like it then fuck um. I just have to get to that point where i'm comfortable with myself and maybe, just maybe, when somebody looks into my eyes they will see nothing but acceptance, joy, and happiness.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
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