You Gotta Do What Makes You Feel Happy

For the longest time I've been trying to fight certain urges that I've been having. Shielding myself from who I truly am and not letting my true colors shine. Well enough is enough. I decided that I'm not going to live that way anymore. If you're not going to be yourself then you'll truly never love yourself.

I've had a lot thats happened in the last 24 hours or so and now the truth comes out. I know that this truth is going to take this one person by surprise and i'm sorry for this, but I have to be true to myself. I'm bisexual.

For the longest time i've been concealing or put it another way, I've been blocking it out of my life. I've had my experiences in the past but for some reason I've always been fighting the urge to really make it apart of my life. I have been tested, just so that one person knows who might be reading this. I also want this person to know that I wasn't doing anything with anybody, and I do mean ANYBODY, while I was seeing her. But concealing this truth, from this person, is totally unacceptable. So I truly am SORRY for what I've been doing. If she wanted a real appology, so she stated, then this is it right here. I never wanted to hurt you. I cared so much for you deeply that I didn't want anything bad to happen to you. You invited me into your home, gave me food, let me sleep in the same bed as you, and invited me to meet your children. You truly are a wonderful person and I wish you the best of luck in your journey. I just hope you don't get back together with that asshole ex boyfriend of yours. You deserve better then that. You should never let a man put his hands on you in anger. You're to good for that. So I hope you take these words of so called wisdom, if you want to call it that, and use them to the best of your ability.

I understand that you might not want to talk to me anymore, and i'm fine with that, but I just want you to know I want nothing but the best for you...even though I might not be that person.